I'm One of THOSE Actors Now

So.

There comes a point in every performer's life that they decide, they have to be a little more specific in the roles they chose to accept.

I never really wanted to become one of those actors.

I admit, it is far more fun to have a named role, than it is to be in chorus.

My actor ego has been quite beaten these past two weeks.

I didn't get the part I really wanted in Damn Yankees.

And I didn't get anything in Footloose. I was offered chorus. I'm sure one would say, "featured chorus", none the less. I didn't even manage to get one of the silly, giggling side-kick roles I thought I'd for sure be a shoe in for.

Nope. Just chorus.

And that sounds so incredibly ungrateful and bitchy.

But, I was a little surprised. And my fragile ego was hurt. (Don't be mad at me Frannie.)

I realize they are just shows, and they are super fun to just be in them. But, honestly, it's way more fun when you get the part you really wanted.

Otherwise, you just sit there judging every last choice the actor makes, or the note she sings.

And why do I want to be that stupid to my friends. It's just silly.

Anyways. So yeah. I'm sad about both of those shows.

I'm gonna audition this weekend for a UNO show that I'm sure I won't get.

And then, next week is Southern Rep. which again, almost positive I won't be getting anything in that either.

Boo hoo. What an effing pity party this is.

Everyone feel bad for the girl who had the best time last year, won all kinds of silly awards, and just got through being the lead in a hit NOLA Project show.

Boo effing hoo.

While I'm complaining about things I hate....I really am tired of people telling me I'm funny looking, or that I'm "not the right look" for certain roles.

I know it just means I'm fat. ARGH. Ok. Enough of that.

On a much, much more pleasant note I saw The Last Days of Judas Iscariot last night.

Loved it. I love the play to begin with, but I thought the cast and direction was super solid.

Yeargain did great. He is so good it hurts sometimes. I told him last night that I realized the only reason he did Marmalade was so he could watch adults acting like children, and steal everything we did for one of his scenes in Judas.

Joyce Deal was also A-mazing. I'll never think of Catholic saints in the same way, again.

Kirkpatrick was equally amazing. Liz's coif, accent and bedazzled white pleather jacket...equally amazing.

And making Gore break on stage was just the icing on the very scrumptious cake.

Go see it. It runs tomorrow night and Sunday matinee, and then next Thursday through Sunday.

Ok. Sorry for all the complaining.

It was lame, I realize.

Lest we forget, I'm an overdramatic actor.

Self loathing, blaming others for all our problems, and desperately needing the pity/love of others come with the territory.